simplicity x fantasy.

ME! YES! ME!
Pauline Toh aka Laupeni aka Pau
Puggol Primary,Compassvale Secondary,SRJC
4th October 1990
pau_100490@hotmail.com

Desires
1.Don't Faint because of fatigue
2.Want to go university
3.Have a BF
4.Slim down
5.Travel around the whole world
6.Shop all day long
7.Be an achiever

Likes
1.God
2.Family
3.Fahrenheit
4.Slack
5.Chatting
6.Oggle at HANDSOMEs
7.Listening to songs
8.Dancing anyhow..
9.Gossiping

Dislikes
1.Cockroaches
2.Pretty Gals (just jking)
3.Exams
4.homework
5.People who treat me like a fool
6.Being disturbed when i'm in the middle of my dreams

Principles
1.Don't like me? Well, i won't like you much either.
2.Can't be friends? Then don't be enemies either.
3.My pride
4.If you treat me well, i won't treat you badly.
5.If you give me 100% of you, i will give you 100% of me.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

I have a friend whom I like her very much, and recently she told me about smth she had kept from me. She didnt like a friend in the class and didnt talk to her from the moment she and the person were from the same class( which is in Sec 3) .
She told me that that person(let's just call her F) was very irritating and disturbing, and everytime she tries to talk, F would always interupt her. She told me that she had enough, and IT's EITHER HER OR F, both cannot survive together.
I was slightly shocked when I heard her, I mean why do she have to hate F so much? Isn't it very painful? It's torturous isn't it? I don't mean that i never hate any person before but I sincerely believes that everyone in this world has their goodness deep inside, just that some people don't see it.
What's more that this F is from the same CCA with her, that makes things even worse. She told me it has been too long... too many times that she can't take it anymore. So now she's not talking to her AT ALL. I realised that too, ever since last year. U are torturing urself too....having to avoid her everywhere you go, and I hate myself too, for being so timid, for not daring to tell that in front of her, afraid that she might get mad at me. I'm a scary cat.. I know F since I was sec 1 , and I dont think she's that bad at all, it's only sometimes she can be quite annoying but in all, she's a good friend actually. I don't mean that she's not my friend, she's also my good friend, just that I don't understand why God design humans to quarrel, so that they could have some entertainment back in the olden days?
Jealousy can be a very dangerous thing if it is not treated wisely. Everyone's got that jealousy inside himself and once something triggers it, the consequences might be inevitable.
SS asp today, going through SS mid-year pp... and I realised a very bitter truth.
My best friend( call her Y then) is a very good humanities student and I don't deny that. She's got the highest in the lvl and I'm happy for her, but what makes me jealous wasn't her results - it was the attention teachers give her.
The SS teacher treated me as invisible even though I was sitting right next to Y and all the time I was watching him hoping him that he would look at me - so that i can ask my question. Well, he didn't even in the least give me a glance. All he saw was Y, kept talking to her, asking her marks for each qn... etc. to be crude, HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME A DAMN!
The only thing I wish for him was to let me have a chance to ask question, but NO. I couldn't talk because in his eyes i could only see Y, Y, Y! It seems that if I ask anything, I might be interrupting them.
Only the best would be remembered, while the rest? FORGOTTEN. And guess what? I don't want to be the REST, I want to be the BEST.
Say me BHB will do, say me proud, say me anything u want...............

Lifeis a mixture of simplicity and messiness,I call it fantasy
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